The letter from Father Deomar De Guedes (thanks the AnonObserv for the translation):
Rome, November 8, 2013
Dear P. Sylvester in Christ:
Having determined my departure from the Legion, I would like to leave some lines of " feedback" with the reasons for my departure. I do it after much prayer , without rancor or hatred, and yes with a sincere desire to work in this institution where I fought in the last 21 years of my life . I hope that my departure and that of so many other brothers of ours will help you reflect on the "why " of these phenomenon.
Although you already know , I offer a brief summary of my life in the Legion. I graduated as a Civil Engineer from the University of Brasilia in 1985 , I worked six and a half years in Brasilia companies . The last was as supervisor of nationwide works with a team of engineers under mycharge. There I discovered my priestly vocation after a long discernment with my spiritual director. Invited by P. Adolfo Flores, I entered the novitiate in March 1992 , after having done the candidacy in Curitiba, Brazil . I made my first vows in April 1994 , staying in Curitiba few more months to complete the work of the novitiate. In August 1994 I was transferred to Rome to start philosophy. I finished the Bachelor of Philosophy in July 1996, obtaining very good final average. From there I was transferred to the Pontifical College Maria Mater Ecclesiae International in Castel di Guido , as assistant rector. Simultaneously I completed the Bachelor of Theology until July 1999. Hence , as a deacon , was transferred to the City of Mexico , as director of the Center for Medicine, the training of lay consecrated Regnum Christi. On January 1, 2000 , I was ordained a priest by Don Lucas Moreira Neves , the first Legionary of Christ Brazilian to receive ordination . I remained in Medicina until February 2001 when I was transferred to Curitiba going on a recruitment tour in the State of Paraná . That year, 2001 , I took to the apostolic school in Curitiba a large group of 22 boys who went to the summer program and 15 entered the apostolic school.
In April 2002 I was transferred to Madrid as Regional Director of Spain , remaining there until December 2005 when I was transferred to Buenos Aires , local coordinator of apostolate and superior of the community . In December 2008 I was transferred to São Paulo as rector Maria Mater Ecclesiae Seminary , where I remained until March 2012 when I was appointed second general counsel , to date. As you know I have dedicated myself with love and passion to my mission and I think I can say that I have served with fidelity to the Church and the Legion.
Now I will explain my motives for my separation . First the personal and after the institutional reasons .
Personal reasons :
1. After the news broke concerning the truth of the allegations of the founder and system of concealment that was created to protect him, I began to question this system, which I had become part of and collaborated in , believing that such was religious life , having been formed within the same system . A total obedience , where everything was God's will . Then I began to see how these same principles had manipulated my conscience. I've noticed that I've been used, and , unfortunately , I have collaborated with this system where the institution is worth more than the person. Where you're a cog in the machine while you serve and then thrown away. Men who had 20 , 30 years of their life were dismissed almost as evil people and were asked by their superiors to leave the congregation.
2. From the moment I started to present my ideas and my way of thinking , little by little, I 've been taken away from any kind of preaching . Before I used to preached two, three spiritual retreats a year, from 2009 to today , I've only preached two retreat to consecrated women in Brazil, to legionaries-nothing . Then I noticed that I was already seen as "evil" by the system. There was no room for my thinking in the Legion. Even after making the General Council , I have always been a minority and my opinions barely considered.
3. My own discernment, within this system of " total obedience " always has been done "from the outside" by my superiors. For my perpetual profession my superior asked me to go to the Triduum and perpetually profess, and in the following year I would be ordained priest. It was not a personal choice, it was an act of obedience . I might have professed just the same, but there was no desire make it my own personal decision made in freedom.
4. My frustration was gradually increasing because I felt that my vision of the Legion was becoming increasingly a minority view (fewer people ) and that my struggle was futile . Today , before God , I see that I did everything in my power but I was largely fighting a losing battle more for my pride, not because God asked me to . The sign was in the lack of inner peace and that I was experiencing great frustration .
5. I've made my decision , as I have said , for personal discernment done with my spiritual director and in front of God, and I could not go any further without endangering my priestly vocation and my psychological health. I could not go on, any more would be reckless.
Institutional reasons :
1. I can not believe in a renewal of the Institute that does not examine its dark past and the repeated and systematic abuses by the founder of children who came looking for the priesthood at the seminary. Without being purified of this past, recognizing it, asking for pardon, and making this recognition public would be like building on mud.
2. I have never understood the administrative system of the Legion and I think that few do. The property management carried out under secular corporations which make a mockery of canon law. I can not agree with the lifestyle differences , why some live in abundance , some are very poor among the Territories despite the centralized economy, and the misappropriation of donations with respect to the intention of the donor.
3. The training does not believe in forming, but rather is built on distrust and surveillance , monitoring , searching rooms and monitoring emails from Zscaler which allows the administrator to enter into whatever computer he wishes.
4. The non-renewal of superiors who remain in their office for decades, or changed from one place to another, but always a superior . There are legionaries who have never been subjects in their life. A true renewal without renewing superiors is not possible.
5. I think a change of mentality requires removing all methods that are "marcialist" systems that endure, especially by those people who have spent years in the same job and have much influence in decision and the making and preparing of documents yet without occupying any official role .
6. What is the charism of the Congregation? Is there a charism ? Documents of the Church invite us to look to the charism of the founder . What is the Legion ? I think one should look for an answer.
7. The centrality of the apostolic program of the Legion. I see the Legion looking much more to serve itself rather than a selfless service to the Church. There is little support for diocesan pastoral needs and the resistence to cede to persons of ecclesial-pastoral, showing a culture which exalts only one’s own.
8. The Legion is experiencing a serious crisis of confidence, this is perhaps the most serious problem . No confidence because no appreciation and care for her people. Trust is not earned by decree or the superior asking subjects to trust him . Trust is earned by confiding in principle, giving credit to people, showing appreciation for them. I think there is much to do in this area.
I believe this is all, Father, I hope that it is helpful , I will be praying for you in process of renewal. Sincerely commend the Legion in its renewal process in the General Chapter ,
P. Deomar Guedes , L.C.